Monday, August 16, 2010

Who's the Parent?

My son and I are in the midst of a slew of battles to decide who is right. It consumes most of our interactions with each other. The majority of these arguments are over such petty things. To top it off, I transition in and out of these “discussions” from what should be parent mode to child mode.

I’m tired; it’s exhausting to try to win all of the time. I’m annoyed; I can’t stand hearing myself engage and even start some of these debates.

I had heard over the years to “pick your battles.” I imagined I’d be a natural. Oh, not even close and way harder than I ever dreamed.

This “right” bug I’ve been infected with is even spreading into my relationship with my husband worse than usual – let alone I’m sure is circulating through my friendships.

I ache to be done with this virus which feels like it’s destroying my relationship with my son. I’m grateful my eyes have been opened to my behavior, and I pray I can control this habit before our bond is irreparable.